| Tänään tunnen olevani hullu taiteilija. |
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Hyvällä tavalla siis. Tuntuu, että olen tehnyt jo monenlaista. Ja kaikki vain siitä johtuen, että olen viikonlopun kunniaksi ollut ajattelematta ja tekemättä sitä mitä olisi pitänyt. Eli unohtanut kaikenmaailman velvollisuudet. Ja lopultakin saanut itseni ylös, ulos ja liikkeelle. Kaunis syksyinen ulkoilma ja kauniin kellertävät vaahteranlehdet.. voiko inspiroivampaa olla? Ja lisättynä vielä pieni vesisade. Ah. Ja nyt minua kiinnostaakin jo suunnitella harjoittelun opetustunteja. Ihan eri tavalla. Taisin jopa tehdä ruokaakin tänään ihan itse. Ja huomenna pääsen taas harjoittamaan haastellisia ompelutouhuja illemmalla, joista voinen kertoa myöhemmin lisää. Mutta Maijaa lainatakseni; kaikki tiet vievät Taiteen talolle ;). Ja tämäkin tekstinpätkä syntyi kuin heittämällä. Kiireen keskellä täytyy siis olla hetkiä myös itselle. Se vain on niin.
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| A thought from today. |
[15 Oct 2009|03:30pm] |
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"Where did I lose myself, where?"
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[26 Mar 2009|07:19pm] |
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I couldn't get a hold of my school studies so I decided to try to write here something. And listen to some English radio channel for my "homework" after this. And tomorrow we're trying to find our ways to the library to get to know what kind of items/books/smth? we find from there in English. And report about it in our next lesson. It's been so refreshing to study English for a long time and to do something else than just try to find some new ideas all the time etc. Even though I really do love creating things much, but sometimes enough is enough especially during a short time. Today I also had a chat with an Estonian exchange student and it was very fun and interesting because if I didn't remember some word in English I could say it in Finnish and she understood me because their own language is so near ours. She was very nice girl and told that she is studying both handicraft and home economics at the same time. Hopefully I'll be able to chat with her later on, she'll be staying here until the end of May. It would also be interesting to visit Estonia and have a local "guide" there..;P so interesting! I've been once in Tallinn but I didn't really have much time to spent there then. I guess there's going to be some excursion from our school to Tallinn at this spring and hopefully I'd have then money (and time & chance) to be able to participate to that trip. But we'll see.
It felt strange when I read my old writings from last summer and autumn. I could really get back to those feelings then and at the same felt quite interesting how for example my relationship with this city has naturally changed during the year. Huuuuu... So weird! Like.. I don't know. Like I'm feeling more home here all the time but still missing living in Tampere. There was really something in that city which I still cannot describe. At the moment I'm still so waiting the moment when I'll be able to travel there again. Quite soon already! When I'll have energy and time. And money too. Even though it isn't really that far away but still it requires money. Oh, such a lovely place it really is <3. I don't know but I somehow just love it. I've been dreaming about being able to sit on the green grass next to Tammerkoski at the summertime when the sun is shining and everything.. Oooooh. I so want to go there! Oh. When I lived there I felt so home. Somehow that city just made me come alive. Even though I guess I made it myself too of course but I could breath there very very easily. I don't know but there is something magical in that place for me <3 I get so excited if somebody even mentions "Tampere" at school and I can't stop talking about it. AAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I so want to go there again soon!! Tampere, I miss you SO much! I really almost need to catch a train after writing this because... I just feel like it. I know that when I'll go there I'll be just sitting next to the railway station and watching the main street. And feel like running there and there!! If Tampere really would be closer to Helsinki I'd like to live there and travel so school from there nearly :D. Aaaa. Maybe I'll stop writing this now :).
But there is also this that I felt there that people are really somehow more caring there than here. I see and hear here so many empty words and expressions. People are just hanging around together without really knowing that much about each other and stuff. Or even not wanting to know about each other. So sometimes I'm just so full of seeing people everywhere. It somehow makes me feel like I'm just one of thousands of people and I almost get lost to that feeling. For awhile I forget myself and just think I too belong to that group of people who really don't care. Even though I know it isn't true. I hate that feeling. I didn't feel like that in Tampere. I felt warm there. So warm. But it is true also that here - on the otherhand- I feel more confident about myself. Äh, I don't know. A bit confusing combination I might say ;D
But I know what to do! I really need to make a trip to some other place! I guess I'm just getting to full of this place for now and feel better about it when I come back. But still I think there will be several things I'll never learn to like here. Getting used to them, yes. But to like? No. And I don't even want to.
But there really is only few weeks and I'll head back to north! <3 I just cannot wait. It is so wonderful! I really wait for that. I cannot describe that in words. I'll just wait that moment when I'll see my parents and my sister and brother <3. Oij, I'm getting so excited!! Like I said sometimes earlier; I've realized I miss my family more and more when years are passing by. Even though I won't get stuck with that feeling but it still doesn't mean that that feeling would somehow disappear. It remains there; sometimes more powerful than the other times. But soon I'll be able to enjoy that warmth again.
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| Tahtoo kirjoittaa suomeksi. |
[28 Oct 2008|09:57pm] |
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Nyt vaan tuntuu siltä. Kaipa sain puuskan tänään tieteellisen kirjoittamisen tunnilla kun harjoiteltiin ideointia ym., esimerkiksi kuutiontia. Yritän lisätä kuutiointiharjoitukseni tähän lopuksi, katsotaanpas olenko omaksunut linkityksen taidot joista on minulle vinkattu :-).
Tänään satoi ja satoi. Koko päivä meni oikeastaan koululla, kankaankudonnan loimea luodessa ja kangaspuiden osia laitellessa.. pian pitäisikin jo päästä sen varsinaisen maton kimppuun! Odotan suurella mielenkiinnolla mitä on tuleman sillä en ole varsinaisesti ekaa luokkaa lukuunottamatta kutonut kangasta; saatika sitten mitään mattoa! Hih. ^^ Tarkoitus olisi tehdä kärkitoimikasta eli siksakin muotoista kuviota kahdella punaisen eri sävyllä ja oranssilla. Loimena olis musta kalalanka.. en ole ole ihan täysin varma että miltähän lopputulos tulee näyttämään mutta eiköhän se pian selvinne! Tänään touhujen aloittaminen oli yllättävän helppoa.. kai alan vähitellen päästä siitä kuuluisasta aloittamisen vaikeudestani ja tarttua vaan tuumasta toimeen. Koska kaikki itsensä ja mahdollisten taitojensa kehittäminen on omissa käsissä; ei lorvailemalla mikään etene millään :P.
Ai niin ja olihan meillä tosiaan siinä välissä tuota tieteellistä kirjoittamista. Onneksi väliviikkoa edeltävä tentti oli mennyt läpi; ei olisi jaksanut alkaa uusimaan nyt mitään. Paitsi tietty psykologian toinen osa täytyis tenttiä edelleen ja opetella mitä se metakognitio tarkoittikaan o.O.
Lisäksi ilmoittauduin mallinukkekurssille parin viikon päästä. Siitä olen ihan innoissani! Tarkoitus olisi siis omilla mitoilla olevaa mallinukkea muotoilla Magic-paperista (jokin tuollainen se nimi oli..). Ah en voi sanoin kuvailla odotukseni määrää asian suhteen! Olis todella mielenkiintoista pystyä muotoilemaan jotakin omien mittojen mukaan olevalle nukelle eikä peilin kautta zoomailla vaan ja yrittää katella miten jokin istuu päälle tai muuta. Voisi olla ikäänkuin ulkopuolinen! Aaaah. Toivottavasti projekti onnistuu, nukesta tulisi my preciouuus. Uusi my precious <3
Koululta lähtiessä köröttelin Ninan seurana rautatientorille ihanalla ratikalla josta sitten jatkoin Munkkiniemeen ruuhkaisemmalla versiolla. Mutta ruuhka ei oikeastaan haitannut melkein yhtään.. tuijottelin vain ulos valojen ja sateen täyttämään pimeyteen. Koulusta lähtiessä alkoi tehdä mieli Ben and Jerry's jätskiä, jota en edelleenkään ollut maistanut. Vaikka nyt periaatteessa jätski ei oikein hyväksi masulleni olisikaan kun siinä on laktoosia. Mutta olinhan kotiin matkaamassa. Poikkesin kirjastosta hakemassa yhden kurssikirjan ja sitten suuntasin Makuuniin. Päätinkin tarttua kolmen päivän vuokraustarjoukseen ja hamstrasin Geishan muistelmat-, Swimming Pool- sekä Suden vuosi-leffat. Ykkösenä noista listallani oli tuo Suden vuosi. Luin sen paluumatkalla Oulusta Helsinkiin viime lauantaina. Ostin pokkarin aseman äRRältä ja se oli menoa se. Oli todella mielenkiintoista katsella sitten leffaa ja samalla pohtia mitenkä elokuvissa pystyy ilmaisemaan ne ajatukset ja tuntemukset jotka kirjan kautta välittyvät. Herätti erittäin paljon ajatuksia ja tuntuu kuin olisin taas ollut matkalla jossakin.. Elokuva toki kyllä poikkeasi kirjasta, mutta yritin ajatella asiaa veljeni esittämän näkökulman kautta; ajatella löytäväni elokuvasta ihan erilaisia merkityksiä ja täydennyksiä koska tiesin "enemmän" kuin mitä ruudulla näkyi. Ajoittainen moinen oli hankalaa, mutta ehken kuitenkaan katsellut elokuvaa yhtä kriittisesti kuin mitä aiemmin olisin tehnyt. Tuossakin pätee se miten sitä niin usein luulee olevansa ja tietävänsä jotakin, mutta kun pysähtyy miettimään asiaa uusista, toisten esittämistä näkökulmista huomaa oman pienuutensa ja subjektiivisuutensa. Mutta kukapa kaikista asioista kaikkia puolia pystyisikään kerralla kunnolla näkemään? Sula mahdottomuus sanoisinko.. Mutta mieltään voi kuitenkin avartaa uusilla ajatuksilla. Mitenkä sitä muuten kehittyisikään eteenpäin?
( Tsekkaa tarina Munakellosta )
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| A Moment of....peace? |
[13 Sep 2008|09:57pm] |
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Yei. I tried to upload some new userpics and hopefully did it almost successfully. I found it difficult to crop some of the pictures here because I just couldn't make the box move enough which was cropping the area which wanted. Bad explanation by not-so-good computer user ;D But I'm trying to learn! We have to pass this basic skill test at school (with computer skills) so I've been learning a bit. On the other night this week I noticed that I was sitting here and really studying computer about 3 hours, whouuu. And it felt great! I got some updates to my computer and loaded GIMP for photo editing. And the next step is to really learn to use it. Aaaa so many new things to learn and to do. Exciting and inspiring, yes. But at the same time I need to make the apartment to be as home.. well, at least I have something to do so it shouldn't be boring.. maybe :P
I was so happy today and last night that I didn't have to go to the centre at all. AAAAAh. I went to grocerys but otherwise I've just been inside these "empty walls". And it's been so nice. Just a little moment of peace from the fussing allover. aaaaaw. I slept well and this morning started to wash my laundry. Well, it didn't go as planned. I've got a used washing machine from my friends brother and last week I used it the first time. And it went ok, but today was different. I just couldn't get what was wrong because it took water in but it went off all the time. And the laundry was only partly wet. :O wooot. I tried to call my dad and when he didn't answer; I called my ex-roommate who comes right after daddy when talking about household! xD xD Hihi. Well, she really could help me! I didn't know that the pipe where the water came out from the machine, had to go first up like 70cm so that it wouldn't loose the water all the time. Last week the pipe was at the sink so it was high enough. This morning I put in on the floor to the 'lattiakaivo' so it really wasn't high enough. And yeah, when I put it back to the sink.. it worked as a dream!! I had imagined all the possible reasons why it didn't work and I was even thinking about how I need to drag the machine out of my place because it is broken and if I need to wash my laundry at my friends' etc. So I had almost planned everything ready in case it really was broken :D!! But it felt sooo wonderful when I knew why it didn't work. From now on I will definately remember it because spending few hours thinking about the problem and finally solving it with my friends help x) hihi. A good lesson of household!
I tried to check some school things a moment ago and then I got inspiration about writing here. So the school works very well ;D. I found few balls of pink teddy knitting thread and I would so like to a winter cap out of it! It so cute :). I need to first find some instructions because I haven't knitted for a loooooong time. So it is about time to do so.
Now my shoulders hurt so I think I need to stop.
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[16 Jul 2008|11:58am] |
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AAaaaaaaaaaw! I'm Alone. ALONE! At home. My own home. Aaaaaaaah <3 <3 (Maybe I'll own this chapter for that line only ;P)
So as you read, I'm alone at home. Finally! My friend Katja left yesterday to head back to Kuopio and I had a date with myself in the evening! :D I felt like listening to Elvis so I decided I could afford on buying a record ;). It is dully "The 30 #1 hits" but I need to start from somewhere. I mean I haven't really listened to Elvis before. I mean really listened to it. I've just been wondering that what's the fuss about him everywhere. But now that I listen to it I'm so anxious to listen to it over and over again :D Sooo lovely! and just right for my mood now. I feel so.. Light I might say.
In a moment I will start on practicing the yoga; (I don't know the actual expressions in English so; Astangajoogan aurinkotervehdys). It isn't the actual yoga, just the "warming-up part" or something like that. My mother taught it to me and it really has helped with my neck, back and everything. Even though I think I don't manage to do it exactly right. And I do it too rarely. But now I've decided to have more self-discipline on that matter too. In the autumn I have thought about going on a yogaclass, there should be lessons on universityexercise (or what the hell to word might be, anyone? :D). It feels such amazing that even this about half an hour warming-up can feel so good. Aaah, more more!! I'm also hungry not because you shouldn't eat before starting. Or at least not near when doing the exercise.
Yesterday I already started packing things a little. And I was so amazed that it was so easy. I mean, when I have moves earlier, I have done the packing part during the few days before moving. And that is really annoying. I have always end up on bumping the stuff in black garbage bags and drag those bags with even to another city. And what kind of crab there has been! >:[ Whyyyyy. Lazy Henna ;P.
Today I will continue with Maijas coat, maybe cut the collar and sleeves. That's a good aim for today. Then I thought about walking to Hatanpää to visit Johanna and Tommi. We've had our schedules intersecting in these months so finally I'll manage to see Johanna :--) I could ask some good tips with comics again. And I need to return Nemi-book back to her. Aaah, Nemi is so lovely :D And yesterday I read Don Rosa's Scrooge McDuck, hahah it was funny 8).
Maybe at the weekend I'll be able to add some photos. My friend who knows about computer is coming to visit me (and we go to Särkänniemi!!) and maybe he'll help me to remove that possible virus from my camera :P It would be sooo great.
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[06 Jul 2008|10:10pm] |
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I was reminded by this place since a looooong loooong time. And hopefully I would have better manners on using this journal. So let's see what will happen ;)
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